Re-set.

Have you ever noticed how you get set in your ways after awhile? You’re set in a daily routine, or you’re one of those people who have no routine and you’re set that way. Well sometimes you get re-set or have to re-set yourself.

For the last six years I’ve been set into taking care of Fmom. There was really no routine, just making sure things were in order around here, and making sure she was OK. Now that she is gone, I’m finding that I’m having to think of how I’m going to re-set myself.

I have to admit I let myself get a little lazy in the last year or so. Any type of routine I had, I completely let go. Heck I would even let a day or two go by without shaving. Now it appears I have to go out into the world again, and honestly it’s kind of frightening. I don’t mean it’s frightening like one of those people who stays locked up in their house for 20 years and never comes out. I mean it frightening that I’m going to have to get back out in the world again and sell myself.

I guess what I’m going to have to do is re-set myself to go out and get a job. I’ve been thinking about this a good bit. I worked what’s called Bioenvironmental Engineering for 20 years in the military. It was OSHA/EPA compliance. Now there’s not much call for that in a very small town. So I’m trying to think of what I can do now. It can’t be too physical because of the health problems I’ve had, but I can sure do a desk job. I’ve completely given up on Publisher’s Clearing House coming through, although if miracles do happen, this would be the time. So my next choice would be how to become a multi-millionaire by sitting in front of my computer at home. I haven’t quite figured this one out yet, but once I do and after I’ve bought my first island, I’ll let ya’ll know how to do it. Who knows, we all could get a chain of islands and become neighbors. :)

I hope everyone is doing fine and thanks again for all of the kind comments and caring.

FM

Thank You All.

I want to thank each and every one of you for all of your kind words. During one of the most difficult times in anyone’s life, your comments have made me feel not so empty.

With the exceptions of my oldest brother and sil, all the relatives left today. I can say that with eight kids all under 12 here for a couple of days, it was pretty hectic. I guess it was good in a way though, because it did keep things busy.

Thanks to everyone again, and I hope to be writing some stories again soon.

Take care

FM

FMom Passed Away

Fmom passed away earlier this week and we had her funeral today. As funerals go it was beautiful and the church was packed. I think Fmom would have been happy to see so many friends and relatives. I think also her passing was as she would have wanted it. She died asleep in her bed in her home. The house is full right now with relatives and as nice as everyone has been, I’ll be glad when there’s some peace and quiet.

I’m doing OK at the moment. I don’t know what the future will bring, whether I’ll still be here or some place else. I do know there’s a big emptiness that stays with me now.